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I always thought that this 3 month holiday is a long period for me to take a good rest and prepare for the battle of year3 and o level. However it seems like i'm even busier than ever. At least school i still have some break in between to rest. Now i'm like rushing against time. I wish i have more self discipline and time management to complete what i want. I should probably learn to sleep early like 12am and wake up early to do my stuff. Have to come up with a list and stick to it! Ok mustttttt.

I really can't stand how my mom has to throw her temper early in the morning and i'm always one of the victim. Just so you know my temper isn't anywhere better especially early in the morning and so all the poor customers had to stand my bad attitude. I feel really guilty and bad now but i really couldnt control my anger this morning. Sometimes i wish i can just walk out of the house. Of all times she has to spoil my mood early in the morning. There goes my day. Even collection of shinhwa tickets just made me feel a little better and i'm still feeling sore about it. As usual, i refuse to talk whenever i'm in a bad mood then my mom will start playing nice as if nothing has happen. Sorry it doesn't work this way and you probably know it the best. Then she'll give those innocent face and makes me feel fucking bad and makes me feel like im the bad person now. Really, of everyone why must you fucking come and provoke me.

And second thing i can't stand is people telling me “你瘦很多hor”. Ok maybe it's a good thing that i slim down but seriously my weight has only been fluctuating between that 3kg. 3kg 很多meh?!?! I can't even feel much differences in my pants. Only when you slim down then people will start reminding you how fucking round your face used to be. Ok i know im fat la. Aim: lose one kg before i fly to hk!

K must chill. Tmr will be a brand new better day.

I wish to escape to a place like this just for a very short period. One week is good enough. Just slack there, do nothing, browse the internet the whole day and listen to my favourite music. Unlike others, i never get the luxury to have my own personal time the whole day. Maybe once in a very rare time. Life's fair i guess. I have no freedom but i have a great family, awesome friends, good education and i cherish all these a lot. And to make up for all these, i travel! Really love travelling and forget all the work i have on my hand. Back to sg equals to back to reality.

May is ending soon and i have no idea what have i been up to for the past few weeks. It's not like i'm heading out everyday but there's just many things for me to do. And now i'm so stress over my students while i'm not around. Cooping up at home preparing my students' worksheets and materials while i'm away. STRESS! Seeing me being so stressed out over the preparation, my bro came over and talked to me. Haha cutie. He asked why should i care so much when my students don't even care. If they don't care, there's nothing much i can do. True enough. But if i never did try pushing them, i'd have fail my duty as a tutor. Sometimes i feel like sense of responsibility is tying me down too much. At least i did put in the effort and tried. My students arent the smart nor the hardworking kind so honestly i don't expect much from them as well. What i can at least do is to ensure at least a pass. I hope this isn't a lot to ask for.

HAPPY 49TH BIRTHDAY PAPA !
You still look exactly like yourself when you're young. I'm extremely thankful that i take over your good genes of looking young and am hoping this stays even when i hit 30 (omg critical age of aging). I still strongly feel that i look like you despite many many people i look like mummy. I appreciate every little things you have done for me over these 21 years. From carrying me when i'm a toddler, to bringing me to arcade every weekend, swimming, zoo, fantasy island, spca, animal farm. Sending me to sch everyday at 7am without fail. Even if the car breaks down you'd still cycle me to sch. Bring an umbrella to sch and pick me up on rainy days. Buy me my fav food when we're out together. Allowing me to change phone every year using your contract. Do you remember how you used to say korean is an useless language and japanese is difficult and discourage me from learning when i was 18? Now that i'm really interested and putting in efforts to learn these 2 languages, you didn't object and even support me. Thank you for letting me doing the things that will make me happy and all the endless support. These encouragement really brings me far and gives me the strength to carry on. I do not wish to give up yet despite it being difficult and may affect my cap. I want to make something out of all these continuous efforts. I'm sorry that i can't go honors or might even delay graduation. I know it disappoints you. But thank you again for not pressurizing me and have accepted my thinking. Thank you for always allowing me to 先斩后奏. I do feel guilty for letting you know about my overseas trip after i bought my air ticket. I feel especially good this time round because you approach me about my korea trip :) There is just too many things that my dad has been giving and making me love him so so much. I know of other hip fathers that dote a lot on their daughters too and some even approve them for idol chasing together with their mother but my papa is the best father to me and there's nothing i'd ask for. I'd ask what can i ever do for him. Sometimes i think my love for him can never match his for mine. No matter how bad and how much flaw i have, i'll always be his precious little daughter. Omfg i feel so loved by my dad after writing all these that i'm crying now. I love you always always always papa.

Sincerely,
Your daughter.

Greeting from Korean Luanguage Institute at Yonsei University

Hello, Chua Jieying 

we recieved your documents and tuition payment 2545USD that you are fully accepted to our program. 

I will send you our acceptance letter and information letter after application deadline date (May 25th) now, you can book for the flight.

Thank you
Have a nice day.

After much difficulties, finally the letter of acceptance!!! And also settled the air tickets. I guess i'm right to believe everything will turn out fine. Like how we didn't make it for SNU and Sogang and ends up in Yonsei which is prestigious enough. One moment ago we couldn't book flight for budget airline to korea, almost had to take china eastern and transit at shanghai, now korea air is having a promotion and we bought our direct flight for $844! Like a dream come true!!! Everything is good except the fact that i'm extremely broke right now. Not too unreasonable to ask my parents fork out tuition fee for me while i pay for my own expenses in overseas right :/ I must work hard and settle everything by end of this month! :>

Really love how my dad is so concern about my trip that he's been asking little questions and details about korea everyday. He's usually not so uptight about these matters. I guess he's a little worried that i'm away from them so long this time round. Must take good care of myself well there ^^

Last retail therapy tmr! F21 here i come!!!

Why can't things just work out finely?! Really hate how things just can't go on smoothly. None of them. 정말 싫어요!   Today is just not a good day for me! I shall be much more productive!!!

Even though i always throw tantrum at you and knowing that you'll eventually give in to me and taking you for granted, thank you for all the sacrifices you've done for me. Please continue to stay by my side like this. I love you! I really love stay home days like today, doing nothing but sleep and watching tv and bonding time with bro. He's watching rooftop prince now. He knows i like junsu (surprisingly he knows the name!). It feels good whenever we watch the same show together. I can't describe it but i just like the feeling. Maybe it's cause i never get the chance to watch a movie with any of my family members. It's okay...  2.22AM now i still can't sleep. I have to send my bro to sch at 7am later. Ahhh.